"Something" for Elizabeth

"I walk half way around the world,
Just to sit down by your side.
And I would do most anything girl,
To be the apple of your eye.

Troubles they may come and go,
But good times they are the gold.
And if this road gets rocky girl,
Just steady as we go."

- Dave Matthews

I feel like I don't tell you this enough, but I love you.  Sorry for all the music references but you know that is just who I am.  I think we picked the perfect inscription for you ring, "Steady As We Go".  The first lyrics of the song sums everything up I could possibly tell you in eight, short lines.  I  would do anything in this world for you and do anything just to be with you. I think God placed us in each others lives for so many different reasons.  I mean we both really knew when we were "just friends" that there was really something much deeper and much stronger behind those words.  I want to say I am sorry, because the road did get rocky, but how you stayed so steady, I will never know.  During the darkest days of my life you were beside me every step of the way, never once faltering.  I remember the smallest things were the ones that always helped me the most. When Mike died I know you wanted to help so bad.  You knew I needed time to be alone and think, and you let me.  But while I was gone, you found the most perfect qoutes and song lyrics and poems, knowing that is exactly what I would have done, and when I got home I saw them all stuck on the door; each qoute and lyric so perfectly fitting for the occasion and my state of mind.  So many emotions ran through my mind as I sat and read each one.  I wanted to cry, I wanted to smile and laugh out loud, and I wanted to wake you up and kiss you and tell you how much you meant to me.  You always knew the right thing to do at the right time in order to help me the best.  "Something in the way she knows.  And all I have to do is think of her.  Something in the things she shows me." - George Harrison, "Something".  You always knew.  There were so many times where I was completely lost and you needed help and I couldn't be there for you, especially when you were pregnant.  I will never forgive myself for those days and for that I am forever sorry, but I love you and Cooper more than anything in the world and I need you to know that. I know with all of my troubles and thoughts I have neglected you and your needs at times. Again, there is no way for me to apologize and I will never forgive myself.  But inscribed in my ring are the words "Forever My Love".

"We've been through some changes
Always seem to hold on
Lately it feels like you can't take anymore
Something tells me girl this is bringing you down
Forever my friend
Forever my love
Forever the woman that I'm thinking of
I just think if we keep our hearts together
Just think if we build on this trust that we have for one another
Baby we can make this last a lifetime"
- Ray Lamontagne

Again the words seem to be perfect for the occasion. We have been through many changes and have faced a lot of challenges. I know there were times when my depression sunk into your soul. But you ALWAYS stood by me. Because of you and your strength I am starting to feel free again. I promise to you that I WILL be a better husband and father. I will make time for you, even if it includes sacrifices. I will support you in whichever direction you choose, and I will find time, even if it means giving up something I hold dear. Sorry to make this so public but writing has been much easier for me to express myself than speaking, and yeah yeah I will work on that too. So for those of you reading, please don't misinterpret my words. Never once was our marriage in jeopardy nor did our love start to fade. I wrote this to just tell Elizabeth how much I love and appreciate her and to thank her for always being my rock. Now it is my turn.

Love,
Breck

"Treasure these few words 'till we're together
Keep all my love forever
P.S., I love you"
- The Beatles